The One Who's Beaten Down

ME. I was the one who's beaten. School's schedule and projects got my mind and my life a bit fucked up. I didn't mean to complaining but I'm feeling the need to share about this. Nothing's really particularly new besides I got classes for 4 days a week (which is actually short, I know), but the timing and the task is sooooooo rushing and continuing? *suddenly got my mind blank just to describe how was it feels LOL* (which I've got my own mind blank for a few secs/even mins lately *sobs*). For those who knows me, I'm the type of person who easily got overthinking about literally everything and get stress at the same time. It's good to think about something thorough and critical tho sometimes when you're too details thinking about it, and suddenly you scared yourself just to think about it. I'm telling you, that's the part when you starts being overthinking and it's not good. At all.

Overthinking's destructive and it affects me so bad. How was it affected me so bad? Earlier this month, I'm started focusing on my mid-term exams and it's a chaos because on the same week I need to study and do the tests. I got this project in my entrepreneurship class which I need to made innovative foods and sold it for a whole week plus done the groceries and the whole plans and sales report. I felt lost and I cannot managed my timing properly, I didn't even got times for lunch and dinner for nearly 2 weeks and I lost all my beauty sleep HAH. Thank God I didn't get sick or something BUT I had this breakouts all over my chin and jaw bone *cry*. I'm struggling (yep, till now) with my skin probs since I'm in junior high, and I get it cleared up tho sometimes, until now the pimps love to say hello every once in a month (and yep, gal probs. Imbalance hormones sucks). That's how I summarize how much overthinking destructing me from inside-out (inside means, I occasionally cries and moody along the way). Tho I'm trying not to be overthink but once I did, I get carried away by my own thoughts, there's no going back (ok this sounds lebay). But seriously, that's just how I felt. And up till now, I'm still figuring the way to cure my own mind which I know I should starts from myself. I need to change the way I'm thinking and feeling about everything. And those who sometimes feel the same way as I am, I just want to share how I "help" my self from being overthinking. How would I say this? TIPS!

RULE #1: Put a time limit on it. 

Remember when I told you that I easily get carried away? I remind you and myself once again. Don't or even never let overthinking to continue endlessly.

RULE #2: Distract Yourself. 

There's so may ways to distract yourself and what makes it so familiar, it's the same way we distract ourselves from a broken hearts or confusion. Yes, make yourself hella productive! Do something that you always procrastinate or you don't have time or even do something you've never try before. Certainly, there's too many ways to distract you.

RULE #3: Write It Down.

You don't need to have a diaries tho. You can use something other than that. Writing in a blog is one of many ways I personally choose. You could write it on a notes on your phone, or maybe just scribble it away on a Post-It and turns it into your daily reminder on your study/work desk or even your mirror or boudoir to be your self-mantras.

RULE #4: Perfections.

We do realizes that there's nobody as perfect as God up there. We couldn't even make something that is so perfect other than the creator up there. So, let go of what it's called perfection. Strive for "good enough" other than perfect.

RULE #5: Embrace Mistakes.

We're human and we grow and change every secs of our lives. Mistakes and disagreement are part of growth process. Only feels sorry when it's important to be sorry about. I'm struggling with this myself. But honey, we're only going to waste our lives just to feel sorry about every mistakes we made.

LAST RULES:

-Stay +++

-Make a coffee or tea, alone or with your friends.

-A nice-long walk, or light-incense and a good nap.

-Bake something or do any fun DIYs.

-Type aimlessly until you feel better.

-Make a to do list.

-Browse the positivity or recovery tags on tumblr/we heart it/pinterest.

-Think about what makes you smile.

-Compliment yourself. 

-The list is actually long if I dig out for more and I might end it here XD

-Realize that everything is and always be just fine. 

Kindly remember:)

Toddles!

XOXO

Intermezzo.

Hello there, again!

The truth is, I've intended to write again but, I always catches this lazy feelings to brainstorms what and how will I write. And finally, I got the balls to do it tonight.

I'm in the middle of holidays which is consists of two kinds of holidays; new year and also quite week (which schools or college usually aim for before doing finals). And what made me happy is that my family came visit me (also, vacays) for yesterday christmas holidays and I got to felt what it feels like to go out of town from the outter town (hope you'd catch I mean lol). I'm finally refreshed my brains out and got to eat whatever I wanted to. Gosh! It feels heaven to eat without worrying how much I'll spend! I got to visit town I've never been before, to see new roads I've never crossed, to felt the new atmosphere and new kinds of food to tasted. Anyway, 5 days is not enough for me gathered with'em. I almost burst in tears when it's finally time for them to gone back to Jakarta:( And here I am, waiting for another week before finals and, it takes 5 days for the exam but somehow the campus arranged 5 days for 2 weeks, DUH. So, I need to patiently waiting (and study harder, ofc) and I'll be home, YEAY!

Btw, the point of this post is actually I'm going to tell you guys that my blog content is gonna be absurd as hell! (Absurd as in; absurd stories, absurd photographs, or maybe even absurd reviews about make up and the squad, or about foods. And OH movies, novels, every-single-things that I loooove about). And this is it, for tonight I think. Will write again soon! 

Toodles!